Life goes on..

One of the things that I have been terrible at is keeping in touch with old friends, old classmates, etc..

It is seriously my loss.. I have been looking for one friend who was like my best friend.. She was going through some things, I moved to another state, changed my phone number.. etc.. Anyway every time I go home I look for her. I call random people with her same name every few months hoping to find her. I have a plethora of skip tracing resources at my fingertips. One day soon I will look into it..

However, in the spirit of renewed friendships I contacted someone I haven't talk to in a little under a year. Last time I talked to her, I was helping her move out from her boyfriend who really wasn't acting right.. Well, I just talked to her and in 8 short months, she has bought a house(which of course I knew about, she used me). Rekindled with her ex boyfriend (who has sense got his act together), got married and is now pregnant. I am extremely happy for her...

Now as I look back over the last 8 months of my life, I almost lost my mom, my step dad went from vibrant and alive to mental unaware of anything and living in a nursing home, broke my arm-and it is still slowly healing, broke up with the person that I knew was my husband and my business has slowed to a snail pace as I spent 6 of the last 7 months with my parents. Oh and I turned 30.

So, I have allowed my self moments of being stuck in all that has happened to me. However, life goes on.. For all the not so great things that have stopped me in my tracks and made wake up and look at life differently.. For someone else like my friend, these last 8 months have been the happiest of her life. On the other side of that coin. Their is someone else whose last 8 months have been worse than mine..

It really is a wake up for me.. It is time to get moving.. I am extremely happy for my friend and I will celebrate with her shortly.. However, I still have to be honest and say.. That I wish it was me.. The marriage part, the family. etc.. Overall, Just the experience of it being the best time of my life....